sigmastolen | o also

ich bin sehr SHALLOW. no srsly mum and i both. there's stuff on the telly about science and stuff and what we immediately notice is the scientist's Awkward Hair (or partial lack thereof). that sort of thing. also for the Messiah gig I did on Sunday, jay was actually wearing his tux (instead of the slightly-less-formal black dress shirt & pants i got used to seeing him in for philharmonia concerts) and i was totally floored by how gorgeous he was, with the long long legs and the being very very slender and the wearing clothes that actually fit him. Gorgeous. ... I may have told him so and made him rather uncomfortable. (especially considering that i have no idea if he even wants to be my friend right now. er. and that's a whole new bottle of angst that i don't really want to uncork just now.) but um yeah. i'm not proud of it, but. trufax.