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[sigmastolen]

I was kind of in a dark mood today, despite the rain, which I love... Ben came into the library this morning (before a lesson) and... I mean. I feel so stilted around him. What with the elephant in the corner and all. And I want to... ask him about Jay, I guess? Because even though he broke my heart and then didn't give a damn, and even though I don't want to see him or talk to him because it will hurt... I do still miss him a lot. Today especially. And just a minute ago, Roomie mentioned that she has always wanted to visit Griffith Observatory -- which was something he and I had talked about doing. It... made me sad.

I swear the middle parts of my day were good. And full of Mozart.