sigmastolen: (mallow)
sigmastolen ([personal profile] sigmastolen) wrote2009-01-05 11:52 am

fuck.

fuck them both and fuck facebook and fuck me for goddamn looking. especially fuck me. why do i keep letting this hurt me? why is it that i can't just give up and let go? hoping like this is killing me.

and why, when i have had myself a good time and been really, really happy and felt like i was making progress and healing, can i not let that be how it is? why do i keep reopening these wounds?

i'm sorry i'm angsting all over the place. i must be some kind of sick puppy, that i can't help myself.

i need to get out of here.

[identity profile] feelin-saucy.livejournal.com 2009-01-05 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I love that song.

And I'm sorry that you're hurting :(

[identity profile] sigmaforsale.livejournal.com 2009-01-07 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
<3
i'm okay, especially now that i'm back at school and surrounded by friends and distractions... and it hurts a bit but mostly i'm worried and i wish i could do something to help but i can't. *rueful shrug*

[identity profile] wolfieziri.livejournal.com 2009-01-06 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
Wait, wait, wait. What? D:

Hugs? Blunt object for hitting things?

[identity profile] sigmaforsale.livejournal.com 2009-01-07 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
hugs are good. did i somehow not tell you about my massive drama of late? suffice it to say, things were awful for a while and they still might be but i'm okay and with lots of friends who love me. also i iuv yu <3

[identity profile] wolfieziri.livejournal.com 2009-01-07 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Nooo, you didn't. I never hear about anything. D:

But I'm glad to know you've got friends backing you up. I love you too! *hug!*

[identity profile] basspoonified.livejournal.com 2009-01-06 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
I love you and am calling you and you aren't picking up so call me if you want to talk or want some loving.

[identity profile] sigmaforsale.livejournal.com 2009-01-07 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
you're wonderful <3 thank you