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tuba is still great -- we played through stands tunes tonight, and we did visuals with them, and omg it's SO. FUN. i love the activity, i love the section, i love the music -- more or less, definitely the Big Show -- i'm having a blast. yes. i am in love with band. the only thing i'm kind of bummed about now is that ( pout )
but honestly, there's such a sense of identity in the band -- togetherness, bonding, what-have-you. it's great. i think i was sort of missing that last year -- a sense of belonging to something, of being a part, and of having a group based on that. the tubas are so chill, and i'm loving it. and, so help me, i'm really excited about the band parties. i guess i should admit it: i'm officially a band-o. and it rocks, hardcore.
it's also really fantastic of being part of a section with a really strong sense of identity. i mean, bass clarinet was cool, and chris and dave are awesome and we had fun, but we weren't that close-knit. the tubas are really like their own social entity, we do things together, we bond, we laugh, we're close, and the only thing like it that i've experienced was the bassoon mafia, my first and to some extent second years at idyllwild. it's incredible. and i mean, i'm still a little awkward, but that's really just me and how i am, and i'm definitely feeling more outgoing this year than last -- i think that's kind of my pattern of sociability. it always takes me a long time to adjust to new places and feel like i can be something besides shy and quiet and awkward and reclusive. for schools, generally one year, it seems. and i'm also continuing my personal tradition of joining the marching band my sophomore year, but this time, it's because i genuinely missed the activity, rather than, "all my friends are in the band." and also i wanted to meet more people, and i am. and it's really just all around fantastic. basically, band wins.
so yesterday i spent way too much time & money scouring the itunes store for music i remembered from middle school, with altogether satisfactory results. 90's alternative, pop, and rock were so damn good. why is music not good like that anymore? also it bothers me that pants are getting higher -- already my torso is compact enough that pants that say they're mid-rise hit above my waist, and low-rise pants are mid-rise. i don't need my jeans going up to my ribcage. fashion is speeding forward: we've hit 80's. (because high-waist belts, layering, and teased hair are also back. dear god.)
oh, by the way, i cut my hair. a lot. it's shoulder-length now, with side-swept bangs that really just kind of are wavy (the hairdresser was trying to talk me into layering my hair, using "it's so straight, there's no wave to it at all" as one of her arguments... *snorts* little did she know that my hair curls/waves when it dries) and do what they want and sometimes i can bully them into actually going to the side; mostly they splay across my right eye and make my glasses smudgy. it's pretty cute, i guess, but it's so girly -- i'm still getting used to it. if we're not doing anything in rehearsal, sometimes i just stand there, ostensibly in a horns-up position, tugging at my bangs & combing my fingers through them. it makes me feel really dumb and awkward when i realise it.
anyway. yeah. it's kind of sad, but i really missed dorm food.
tuba is still great -- we played through stands tunes tonight, and we did visuals with them, and omg it's SO. FUN. i love the activity, i love the section, i love the music -- more or less, definitely the Big Show -- i'm having a blast. yes. i am in love with band. the only thing i'm kind of bummed about now is that ( pout )
but honestly, there's such a sense of identity in the band -- togetherness, bonding, what-have-you. it's great. i think i was sort of missing that last year -- a sense of belonging to something, of being a part, and of having a group based on that. the tubas are so chill, and i'm loving it. and, so help me, i'm really excited about the band parties. i guess i should admit it: i'm officially a band-o. and it rocks, hardcore.
it's also really fantastic of being part of a section with a really strong sense of identity. i mean, bass clarinet was cool, and chris and dave are awesome and we had fun, but we weren't that close-knit. the tubas are really like their own social entity, we do things together, we bond, we laugh, we're close, and the only thing like it that i've experienced was the bassoon mafia, my first and to some extent second years at idyllwild. it's incredible. and i mean, i'm still a little awkward, but that's really just me and how i am, and i'm definitely feeling more outgoing this year than last -- i think that's kind of my pattern of sociability. it always takes me a long time to adjust to new places and feel like i can be something besides shy and quiet and awkward and reclusive. for schools, generally one year, it seems. and i'm also continuing my personal tradition of joining the marching band my sophomore year, but this time, it's because i genuinely missed the activity, rather than, "all my friends are in the band." and also i wanted to meet more people, and i am. and it's really just all around fantastic. basically, band wins.
so yesterday i spent way too much time & money scouring the itunes store for music i remembered from middle school, with altogether satisfactory results. 90's alternative, pop, and rock were so damn good. why is music not good like that anymore? also it bothers me that pants are getting higher -- already my torso is compact enough that pants that say they're mid-rise hit above my waist, and low-rise pants are mid-rise. i don't need my jeans going up to my ribcage. fashion is speeding forward: we've hit 80's. (because high-waist belts, layering, and teased hair are also back. dear god.)
oh, by the way, i cut my hair. a lot. it's shoulder-length now, with side-swept bangs that really just kind of are wavy (the hairdresser was trying to talk me into layering my hair, using "it's so straight, there's no wave to it at all" as one of her arguments... *snorts* little did she know that my hair curls/waves when it dries) and do what they want and sometimes i can bully them into actually going to the side; mostly they splay across my right eye and make my glasses smudgy. it's pretty cute, i guess, but it's so girly -- i'm still getting used to it. if we're not doing anything in rehearsal, sometimes i just stand there, ostensibly in a horns-up position, tugging at my bangs & combing my fingers through them. it makes me feel really dumb and awkward when i realise it.
anyway. yeah. it's kind of sad, but i really missed dorm food.
