The New Flesh is come!

Last night P. and I went to see The Fly at the LA Opera -- directed by David Cronenberg, libretto by David Henry Hwang, and composed by Howard Shore. And commissioned by Placido Domingo and the LA Opera.

( And here is what I thought of it. )

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i suspect they're back together or will be or something and i just --- i don't understand, i can't comprehend

why why why would he go back to her she CHEATED on him and he was a mess and she was crazy and from what people have told me maybe even emotionally abusive to boot and why would he do that? why when i was nothing but good to him when we were together and at worst, clingy and unstable now we're not and why would he go back to her when he won't come back to me

i don't understand. i love him. and he told me, long ago, that he loved me and that i was everything he wanted and ... just. why?

i miss you so much i miss you and you won't acknowledge me and i don't have words for what i feel but it twists my stomach and makes my throat burn and my hands ache and it makes me do all of those things that girls do that i despise them for and it could be lovely and you've ruined everything and i am so utterly, utterly destroyed.

take me back take me back take me back take me back PLEASE

i meant something to you, not so long ago
how can you not care what you've done to me?