thoughts (and an unintended rant)
Jul. 23rd, 2007 12:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sigmastolen1. penicillin smells terrible i want to retch every time i open the bottle
2. daddy told me i should start taking advil instead of the vicodin because the amounts of painkiller in those mofos is ridiculous and too much is bad for your liver or something? i can't really tell the difference, because a) no fun vicodin-related side-effects for me and b) i can't tell if the hurt is there or if it's not. well i mean the only thing that hurts so far is my jaw, which is dully sore all the time whether or not i'm drugged up.
3. i finished deathly hallows and am at a loss as to what to do with myself. i can't write, i can't draw, i can't practise -- i can colour and i can knit, but i have no desire. also, it made me cry at various intervals, but i was overall satisfied with it. exciting from the get-go, and so intriguing, and taking it (slightly) slower let me follow the tug of memory to look stuff up in hbp, which was awesome when i was right.
4. side note to z-chan, since i just saw your comment to me a few posts pack -- it's not that i dislike the canon Tonks ship. I mean, it's canon, and I've discovered a strange purist tendency in myself over the past several years, so of course i'm not going to ignore it or deny it or anything. it's just that
a) I felt it was extremely poorly handled in HBP, as were all of the romances in that book. They felt forced and unnatural to me when I read it -- pastede, if you will. I re-read it this week, and on this go, the H/G felt more real, felt like it came on more gradually now that I was looking for it, and I'm not going to deny or ignore that, either, even though i like D/G a lot -- I think it's sexier, mostly, with a comforting Shakesperian touch, even if they're all drastically out of character. But I still felt that Tonks's behaviour in the Hospital Wing (as well as Molly's and McG's, all of whom strong female characters that I deeply enjoy and admire, except right then -- honestly, if there was ever a moment that was just NOT THE TIME, that was it), and then at the funeral, was deeply inappropriate and it made me really angry. I also felt that Tonks's character was drastically cheapened by her lovestruck suffering. She was SO COOL in OotP, and I embraced her as a strong, hip, spunky young woman who was self-contained, self-sufficient, who could stay spirited and hopeful even in dark times, and who could satisfy the feminist in me -- but everything I admired about her was destroyed in HBP for the worst reason possible. I like her again, but I still miss the spunky, strong, and unattached Tonks of OotP.
b) canon evidence neither proves nor disproves a prior romantic S/R relationship; it is up to one's own interpretation. I've written stuff both with and without (... or at least, not explicitly with, and not intended to be shippy at first) that relationship, and generally I choose to read the books acknowledging that potential because it makes me happy, and it adds to the character dynamics as I view them. I never expected it to be an interpretation confirmed as canon, because, honestly, it's impractical from a couple standpoints: there's not a relevant way to fit it into the story line (as they're secondary or even tertiary characters and the story is very plot-driven, and it's about good vs. evil, Harry vs. Voldy and not relationships, and honestly i wouldn't have the books any other way), and it would be bad business (it's not really the best subject matter for a children's book especially in this day and age when family-friendly has such a specific and narrow meaning, i'm sure she doesn't want to get into that political and social rat's nest, and it would drive away a large portion of her readers, i'm sure). and, sort of, i never wanted it to be confirmed in canon -- like lots of the canon relationships. it's more fun to play with if there are more possibilities. and fic is just that: playing. imagination, bending the rules of canon, and expressing personal interpretations and opinions are celebrated, and i think that's why i'm so into it, you know?
phew. that seems like it's been stewing for a while? i don't know. also, i think i avoided spoilers? that is, as long as y'all are familiar with HBP, nothing will shock you. um. i should go to bed now, eh?
2. daddy told me i should start taking advil instead of the vicodin because the amounts of painkiller in those mofos is ridiculous and too much is bad for your liver or something? i can't really tell the difference, because a) no fun vicodin-related side-effects for me and b) i can't tell if the hurt is there or if it's not. well i mean the only thing that hurts so far is my jaw, which is dully sore all the time whether or not i'm drugged up.
3. i finished deathly hallows and am at a loss as to what to do with myself. i can't write, i can't draw, i can't practise -- i can colour and i can knit, but i have no desire. also, it made me cry at various intervals, but i was overall satisfied with it. exciting from the get-go, and so intriguing, and taking it (slightly) slower let me follow the tug of memory to look stuff up in hbp, which was awesome when i was right.
4. side note to z-chan, since i just saw your comment to me a few posts pack -- it's not that i dislike the canon Tonks ship. I mean, it's canon, and I've discovered a strange purist tendency in myself over the past several years, so of course i'm not going to ignore it or deny it or anything. it's just that
a) I felt it was extremely poorly handled in HBP, as were all of the romances in that book. They felt forced and unnatural to me when I read it -- pastede, if you will. I re-read it this week, and on this go, the H/G felt more real, felt like it came on more gradually now that I was looking for it, and I'm not going to deny or ignore that, either, even though i like D/G a lot -- I think it's sexier, mostly, with a comforting Shakesperian touch, even if they're all drastically out of character. But I still felt that Tonks's behaviour in the Hospital Wing (as well as Molly's and McG's, all of whom strong female characters that I deeply enjoy and admire, except right then -- honestly, if there was ever a moment that was just NOT THE TIME, that was it), and then at the funeral, was deeply inappropriate and it made me really angry. I also felt that Tonks's character was drastically cheapened by her lovestruck suffering. She was SO COOL in OotP, and I embraced her as a strong, hip, spunky young woman who was self-contained, self-sufficient, who could stay spirited and hopeful even in dark times, and who could satisfy the feminist in me -- but everything I admired about her was destroyed in HBP for the worst reason possible. I like her again, but I still miss the spunky, strong, and unattached Tonks of OotP.
b) canon evidence neither proves nor disproves a prior romantic S/R relationship; it is up to one's own interpretation. I've written stuff both with and without (... or at least, not explicitly with, and not intended to be shippy at first) that relationship, and generally I choose to read the books acknowledging that potential because it makes me happy, and it adds to the character dynamics as I view them. I never expected it to be an interpretation confirmed as canon, because, honestly, it's impractical from a couple standpoints: there's not a relevant way to fit it into the story line (as they're secondary or even tertiary characters and the story is very plot-driven, and it's about good vs. evil, Harry vs. Voldy and not relationships, and honestly i wouldn't have the books any other way), and it would be bad business (it's not really the best subject matter for a children's book especially in this day and age when family-friendly has such a specific and narrow meaning, i'm sure she doesn't want to get into that political and social rat's nest, and it would drive away a large portion of her readers, i'm sure). and, sort of, i never wanted it to be confirmed in canon -- like lots of the canon relationships. it's more fun to play with if there are more possibilities. and fic is just that: playing. imagination, bending the rules of canon, and expressing personal interpretations and opinions are celebrated, and i think that's why i'm so into it, you know?
phew. that seems like it's been stewing for a while? i don't know. also, i think i avoided spoilers? that is, as long as y'all are familiar with HBP, nothing will shock you. um. i should go to bed now, eh?
